You're right on all counts, Matilda. It will be nice to see the kids, but as you can guess, I continue to be extremely sad (coupled with angry) about the diitegration of my family over "unhappiness". To me, it doesn't warrant the violence that divorce would inflict on my family, as you well know. I really want someone to share my life with, and if it's not her, so be it. It will come in time. Thanks for writing.