She started again with the "I do not love you" " we will never work" "I can't force myself to feel something I do not feel" "This past summer was all fake and It just proves to me we will never work out" " I can't LOVE you"
That really stings. It eally Hurts.
I am {trying to{ just let the "words" fall off of me. Again. I tell myself she's confused. She's depressed. Etc...Trying to play it off.
My "friends"?? Tell me "What are you crazy" She is telling you she DOES NOT WANT YOU".. "give her what she wants". "Let her feel what it's like to not have you there. Don't show up every morning to help get the kids ready for school. Don't show up to help with breakfast. Refuse any and all "family dinner" invitations. STOP making it easy for her. Cut her off completely. Let her see what it's really like". "This is what She wants, Give it to her". I can't do that. To me that is changing who I am. That is bieng something I am not.
Am I nuts for continuing to be there No matter what? Letting the hurtfull words bounce off? Hanging onto hope? And continuing to basicly do everything but sleep there? I'm not really sure what to do?
My gut is to just let the dust settle. Do NOT have ANY R talks. Just ride the storm out and give her some space. But Am I really giving her space whan I contunue to "do what I do".
Am I bieng used as a doormat? My feelings bounce back and forth from Just throwing in the towel and giving her exactly what she {says she}wants. Saying Eff' IT...IT's no use.
