I never fully realized just how much more 'secure' I feel with a man in the house.
It's 4am right now and I went to bed at 1am. I am exhausted. I woke up because I had a nightmare where I was basically about to be killed. My heart was beating out of my chest and I was covered in sweat. I am staying in the old house, so I really shouldn't be as scared. The new house actually does have me worried--I guess I need to look into getting a security system tomorrow.

I thought I was at least kind of looking forward to staying over my first night in the house; now I am just feeling frightened. This whole thing frightens me.

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing