Amy.... where in the heck is all the willy nilly weakness coming from. It is sooo not like you to back down and cower from a difficult circumstance..... and for God sake woman.... a 12 yr old child.
Sheesh.... pull up your big girl panties and do what you gotta do!
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.