Lwb, thanks. I am tired. Have had very little sleep. I am just numb right now, letting the events sink in.
Yes, I know now the root flaw at the core of my WAS' soul. I can see it so readily now, whereas love blinded me for the last 17 years. I recall now that I could see it prior to the moment I realized I was in love with W long ago. I can see how I slowly convinced myself that W had overcome that flaw, not recognizing that it had merely lain dormant, and had never been resolved. Her self-esteem, her insecurities are so inextricably tied to this arrogance and pride she now displays. Her haughty arrogance she wears like an armor but it is to protect a very delicate ego. Any wound to her pride, however slight, sets off her most base self, defending her fragile self-esteem.
She has done great harm to me, our M and our family, in putting her pride ahead of everyone and everything else. And yet i still do love her. I just realize though that as long as she is going to take this selfish path of hers, I will not waste my efforts on trying to save this M.
