I find it interesting what I see now when I reflect back on my M. Like you I see things that cannot continue if we have any chance of any type of R.
I spend alot more time doing things solo or with girls when H is home too. Not b/c of him as much as me. I have things I want to get done and I'm much more comfortable going off to do them.
I had to laugh at the old gray mare comment. Hmm, reminds me I need to color my hair....