I want some assistance around the house. H has said before he's punishing me, and/or showing me what it's going to be like when we're D'ed. Problem is, is that when he's NOT home, I'm don't have to think of him when prepping dinner and I don't get myself into these tight spots with two little ones and a steaming bird. We eat Mac & Cheese and get on with the day.
I want some help. This is where we were before any D talk. Me asking for help with kids and everything everyday.
X-e-om is out of the picture. He was emotionally expressive and cared about my feelings, that's what I liked about him.
I'm afraid that asking for help will put H on the defensive.
Our 7th anniversary is Sunday. I'm going away for the weekend, but will be home Sunday before dinner. H asked if I wanted to do *anything*. I said, no, not really, I just wanted to hang out. Then H said he was going to go to a friends house Sunday night, so I clarified, I still want to celebrate our Anniversary, I just don't think I'll want to go anywhere. H asked "presents?" I said, "yeah, presents!"
I gave H a big, warm hug this morning with head-pets and everything. First in months. When I pulled away, I could tell that H was really frustrated, physically... I know I have to *take care* of that and soon.
