MLC's come home-part 2

[cagzmom]

Ok so wierd my thread got locked. I feel so "part of the group" now. HA!

Today was good - and the thoughts of H were different. Being able to look BACKWARDS and remember the pain is GOOD in a wierd way. It has officially been a year since the bomb. Made it through the holidays.

Now...it is time to sit and watch.

The MLC is strange. I do think that so many are right that my H has it bad and I dont know what it will take for him to hit bottom. I have seen him low, heard him low--- but he bounces he bounces right back up adn it doesn't take him very long. I dont get it.

I was talking to a friend yesterday about how low does he have to go and waht will it take. She said it just right....some people get low but dont allow themselves to walk through it. My H quit counseling (which is no surprise to me) and is in pretend land. The ow and teh spending. it is all pretend land.

But here is one thing I dont get. He tells us (teh family) the "truth" as we know it. He tells us he has no money, he tells me he is sad and that he needs to do something (thus the going to church Christmas Eve with ow)..cry cry sad sad. BUT HER --- does she know this side of him? Does he let down his gaurd to her? And WHO is he really? The big man on campus or hte man who comes through my door to pick up d11??

who is he??