Just caught up on the latest thread hear, well not really deep yet so not much to catch up on. I totally know where your coming from with the Meds. I was totally anti, and finally a friend of mine that is someone I totally look up to with coping in life, told me he has been on AD for 2 years. Explained why and what it has done for him.
I got on them a few months ago, and it really helps with the ducks back. I'm not sure how to really describe it, it's not like your happy or giddy or something. I guess for some it may be. But I don't overreact to things. I seem to cope better and take things as they come. I thought they would dull my mind, or something, and I would say a lot of the opposite is true.
Also, I would like to email you, but I can't post my email up on the site. Do you have an email address I can get?