I am not quite sure if H is taking his meds right now or not. He hasn't mentinoed them and I really didn't want to ask. He was by for a bit today and I thought to myself that his visits are different now.
He is quiet for the most part. He falls asleep whenever he is here. He used to joke around with me and always make a point to "accidently" brush up against me...not happening right now. Not sure if this is the depression or what.
I did ask him to help fix my vacuum and he did. I was very greatful. He just doesn't seem himself, but part of me doesn't know if it is just around me or what.
Funny thing. Last night when he called me after work he said my friend was in the restaurant. I ask who and once again he said you know you sent her to check on me. When he told me i had to laugh. A friend from work who doesn't know anything about H or the situation but saw the same pic of the kids behind the bar that I have behing my desk. I guess he is thinking or hoping i am checking up on him. Not.
Anyway, I did enjoy the holidays. I have to say I didn't dwell on H or the situation I just stayed in the moment. I just don't know how much more of this I can handle. I don't know if he is biding his time with the D because of the house and being on my insurance or is he is trying to straighten things out. I do know that he has been keeping his weekly counseling appointments and looks forward to them. I just wish I knew if he wanted to come home.
