Jen You are not alone and you've come to the right place. I know exactly what you are going through. Unfortunately for me, I did not get the SSM until my H filed for divorce. I am still divorce busting and doing everything that I can to save my marriage but I fear it may be too late. I told my H if I had only found the SSM 6 months earlier, I truly believe if would have lifted me from the fog I was in and things would be very different for us right now. I understand all of the emotions that you are feeling; anger, sadness, guilt and even fear. I now understand all of the things that my H has been feeling. I have made him feel unloved & unattractive. To say that he is angry and resents me is an understatement. I am like you in the sense that I also used to have a very active sex life in previous relationships. I'm not sure why this happened to us? I do recognize that I have sexual desire and I too want a sexual and physically intimate relationship with my H...for the longest time I thought that sexual desire or urges were not something I would ever experience again. Now, I just need my H to give me the opportunity to show him my newly found desire. Hang in there, I know it isn't easy but at least you recognize that there is a problem. You have the book and I think that is such a great step!! Is your H open to reading the book too? Are you in counseling together?
Hopefully you will receive responses from some of the high desire people that post here. I have found it very helpful to read their posts and try to develop a better understanding of how my H feels and what he has been going through.
