breton,

Hugs. I hope you DO continue to play around with cooking! It made me sad to read that your H didn't want you to mess up the kitchen. WTH? That's what happens when you cook.
I have been watching the Food Network a lot lately. \:\) Give it a try; you might be inspired!
You're going to be ok. You're doing really well. Your H's ow is very young and the chances are it won't work out. Doesn't guarantee he will come back home but I think in time he will know what a fool he's being.

Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.