Sorry for the time away, but I was just trying to survive the holidays. H has been a real handfull. I've finally reached the end of my rope. He went out to meet Drunken Neighbor today and before he left I said "You haven't done anything with me the entire time you've been off" (11 days) and he said something like I should get used to it and I said so nothing is ever going to change and he said "Probably not" so I handed him my ring and said, "here, this isn't good enough for me anymore and you said to let you know when I'd had enough" He stared at me a moment and took my ring. He said he'd be out of the apt by the 1st of Feb. He left and I found my ring lying on the coffee table. I put it on his nightstand. He's out with DN.
He has drank every day he's been off. He broke his promise "to himself" to never drink at home anymore from the first day he was off. Last night he was drunk and said to D18's bf "I bet you wonder what the f**k you've gotten yourself into." Lovely.
I did leave him a voicemail after he left and said "DN talked about us to everyone in the neighborhood, and you go crawling up there to hang out with him like a dog, but you neglect your own family. And, by the way, last night you told D18's bf . . . and I repeated what I just said above. Then I said, I can't believe you would say that to anyone who would be in a R with our daughter. I hung up.
I need some peace. He needs to go spank his inner child instead of blaming me and his mommy for all his problems. I'm tired.
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver
