Happy New Year to All. I wish you a very calm and peaceful 2008.
Journaling:
Have been off work since Dec 21st and go back tomorrow...bummer.
Last night the kids both had friends for a sleepover new year's party. D12 had 2 and s15 had 5. As H left (after his brief visit) to go to work he said that he wished he could be here to see the fun they will have.
H is still very down (at least he is around me). He sent me a tm happy new year around 2 am (he worked last night) and then called shortly after. He just called now to see if he could stop by later. He said he had a few things to do and would call back when he was close. He did say he was fasting tonight for bloodwork. I asked if all was ok....and he didn't say to much. Just routine. I think there may be more, but he must not be ready to tell. Just a gut feeling.
Anyway, H is still on my insurance and he sure is getting good use out if it. Between C, meds, bloodwork,etc......Sometimes I think that he is not pushing the D through because he knows that once he does he will be off and may have to buy his own or get a real job with benefits
H still stuck in limbo. I wish he would just figure this out. I guess Patience is still the rx for me. Part of the problem is the fact that he told me the other day he is uncomfortable here when s15 is home because s15 is not speaking to him. Yesterday s15 did thank him for some socks and pjs he brought s15. I asked s15 to just say hello to H. He doesn't have to be rude.
I know I can't fix their R but I also feel like until they make progress H will stay lodged in the tunnel. Perhaps it is an excuse to stay in his MLC world but if he is as unhappy as he seems why isn't he moving forward?
So not much going on here. I feel as though h is stuck right now. Not sure if he will every make a move. Perhaps he feels too much damage has been done.
