You know, sometimes I think it would be better if she WAS having an affair. For one thing, it would be something to feel guilty about that she was doing. As it is, she only has to feel guilty for what she is NOT doing, I think that's probably a lot easier for her. Also, her not having an affair really does make it seem that she really couldn't care less about a physical relationship, which is a bit disturbing, and frightening for me. And makes me wonder how I trust things to stay better if they ever get better. Remembering that this is the second time we've gone more than three years.
The anklet got here after she left, so I know she doesn't have it! Maybe it will be a Valentines or anniversary (Feb. 16) gift!
She gets in after 9 pm Friday, so I won't have to take off work. I work near the airport, so I'll probably stay late, and pick her up. Do you think I should take flowers? I've never really been a flower person (which might be a good reason to do it). What would I take?
