DH...

i needed a slap today. Either knock me out of this funk i'm in or just knock me out all together. ;\) I appreciate you posting. It is almost a new year and it will be good!! thanks for the lift.. i need that today! i don't have many bad days, but the bad ones seem amplified by the pregnancy.

i get the manipulative childish thing. I deal with this on a regular basis. I think towards the begining of this thread (or my last one) heim said that he was acting like a little boy. He does. That's why i struggle so much with being supportive and reassuring when he's being down because a lot of the time it feels like he is trying to manipulate this sitch. I don't mean to take away from his feelings, it's just that i can't tell the dif between 'i'm really feeling insecure' and 'i'm going to rub this in your face til it makes me feel better and you feel guiltier'.

I remember that "mooommmmmyyyy, my tummy hurts" hehe... You are sick, if you don't want to do anything about it, then you just get to suffer through it. Did you ask to be sick, is it your fault, no, but deal with it.

I guess i just can't get over the fact that for over a year, he really honestly thought i was cheating. That he thought it would be better if i got pregnant and got caught (he said that) than got on a diff birth control. I know he said that was then, but i still feel like he feels that way sometimes. Then i just go out and prove him right... maybe that's what's bothering me the most. i know i probably should let it get to me like this, but dammit it sucks.

If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

ann