wants to "talk" tomorrow

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Yes, I think I am doing quite well without H but H seems to be struggling.

I feel bad that he is having trouble but at the same time, I will try to send the message that I know he will work it out. He needs to hear that, I think.

And he needs to be able to do that before he comes back. i think he will want to come back at some point or at least have regrets, whether or not he voices them to me--it might be a long while but I do think it will happen.

My thought is whether I will WANT him back. I still have doubts. I think of the negatives--it just seemed I couldn't do anything right, according to H, for a very long time. It is a good feeling to not have to deal with that kind of criticism.