Quote: But I think we are scared to show them, and get upset when we do.
scared to show the fear, the doubt, the pain....scared to show them because at different times am met with different reactions. sometimes comfort and reasurrance is given...sometimes the "get over it" attitude seeps through and further builds my scared feelings...ugh!!!
anyway...have to keep reminding myself what I said to h during seperation...his r with ow doesn't matter..it's not important...what is important is what we have and can have...can't dwell on what was...have to look toward what can be..my harping on these ill feelings is keeping us from having the what could be!!
thing is during seperation I didn't know the whole truth about the friendship...at that point I was led to believe they were just good aquantances..that he spoke to her occassionally and they went out to lunch a few times....I didn't learn how much time they actually spent together until h came home...has made a bit of a difference in how I view that r...but then again I have to remind myself of the fact that h volunteered the extra info..he could have said nothing...it just added to the deciet but at least he did come clean with it...but I must admit it keeps me wondering what other mistruths are there yet to be told???
ah hell LL get over it...h is home...ow is gone...hopefully ow will d her h..sell her house and move away far far away...like maybe the planet looseroid!! but I digress...h is home..h is trying...give him a break and let him make it up to you in his time in his way..patience will get you what it is you want..stomping your feet and demanding to be satiated right now isn't going to make it happen any sooner infact you will have to wait longer...so chill lady chill!!!
