I'm tired of apologizing for my emotions...I will always apologize for my actions when they get out of hand (really what kind of a lunatic woman takes off all her clothes and walks toward her husband thinking he might give in?? lunatic!!)
I honestly don't know if I can get past all this...I don't know...perhaps it would be easier if h were more up to meeting my needs speaking my LL more often rather than expecting me to understand his and understand that he is busy and under stress with the start of the season and that's why he can't love me like I want to be loved...
doesn't really make sense to me?? but that's me..
I don't konw if I can deal with the rejection..the thought that perhaps h did find someone better for him...I was insecure enough with him before and now...well now I just don't feel like I'm good enough for him and when I say things like that (I know I shouldn't) I get a neg response.
