Thanks everyone for your feedback. I'll respond to you more later when I've got time.
Right now I look like ten miles of bad road, crying all night. I'm a real mess.
Soldier boy is totally blowing me off. No word at all. Not even an "I'm not interested." My whole fantasy of him has been shattered.
I went and cried on my best friends shoulder last night and she said pretty much what all of you said. Thank god he cancelled. He could of just f@cked me one more time and tossed weak bunny to the curb. At least he just gave me the brush-off before it got physical. Look on the bright side and all that. Boy am I pathetic right now. Hate it.
Anyways, H and I really need to figure this out or it's just going to repeat itself. I'm scared sh!tless. I just don't know it we can ever get to a place of contentment and I am so scared to not be a family. I just don't know....
Thanks for letting me be honest with all of you. It really helps to vent this somewhere.
