I still wanna know WHY h had this a and what type of a it was....I want to know all about it...I want to know the truth!!! but then again do I??? if I had an a I would know why...I wouldn't just chalk it up to oh we just met and clicked and it was there...I would know that I felt neglected at home...what needs of mine weren't being met...I would be able to say exactly what I was missing in the r that "enabled" me to accept it from an outsider....h cannot or has not yet done that...I have been given the "it" was just there...but what the hell was the "it" I adore h...I admire h...I desire h...I apprecite h...I do things for h...I compliment h...I take care of h...what was h missing??? "that feeling" what is that feeling???
oh I so want to know what power this skank had over my h that would make him do this??? h is an honest man...a respectable loyal dedicated man so why did he do this?? and why did it go to the extreme of his leaving and yet (supposedly) not go to the extreme of him being physical with her???
I dunno??? I still don't know what I was doing wrong...other than expressing my dissatisfaction with our r... I dunno???
