uhm!!! just talked to h...he called to say hello...isn't sure what time he'll be home has an appointment he's trying to cancel...had been sitting with son watching a movie while dd napped reading some of ssm...oh so much of me in there...while talking to h I asked him if he recalled the book I threw on the floor the other week...all he knew was that it said something about sex and marriage and he put it on the counter...I mentioned to him about how in the past when he would leave in the morning to go to football games if we had been physical the night before I walked him to the door that morning with a smile and told him to have fun..but if we had not for some time been physical I was grumpy and annoyed that he was taking a sunday to go watch a game rather than be with his family. h recalled...I let him know that the book explains more than just that...that perhaps it would be better for him to hear it (read it) in anothers words than mine...that there are so many quotes in the book that could have come from each of us...h said leave it out and I'll look at it....now I aint gonna hold my breath but the fact that h at least said he'd look at it is HUGE!!!
I appologized for bringing it up (I wasn't interupting anything but his discussion of how not to burn microwave popcorn) and let him know that I love him...he said Ily too LL...ahhh even if it is just in response to my words still made me want to cry....
so I must say I do feel a little better...a work in progress we are...I feel like this has been a major root of problems for us...I think we are on the right road!!
