Phoenix, what is the word that is out? D? are you hearing that from friends? Remember don't believe what you hear, only what you know.
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I was never one to stay around after things went south.
I don't see that statement as true. You've stayed around all this time already! You've been strong as a rock and steady as a gymnast on a balance beam! If it comes down to W taking the next step then it is still your choice if you are ready to go along with it. Sure can't say I'd blame you for saying let's just get it over with. You've been doing your best for so long already, just stay focused on what YOU want. What you focus on expands. (((Phoenix))) All the best for what is best for 2008.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
I guess what I was saying wasn't too clear. I do work hard at trying to make things work, almost to a flaw. But I am not know for going back to old relationships. Never in my life did I ever make up with old GFs, I usually figured once they had made their choice to leave, it was done. Now will I do this now. Who knows. This time there is a lot more involved.
If there is a sign that W is going to work hard to rebuild our R, I would try too. Since there is so much more involved and invested here, of course I would hang tough. Perhaps the best way to put it is that I live like I compete in sports, I play all out when I'm "in the game", that way I don't have to second guess and relive what could have been later. I play my best.
Why have I let this go on so long? I really do love my W and kids. Is the "hammer" going to drop in the new year? I will stay positive, work hard, then see what happens. Right now having and showing trust for W is the tough part. Every day I wake up and wish that this nightmare would be over and W and I would be sitting on the deck of a cruise ship, holding hands and looking in each others eyes. No such luck though.
