Hurtin, So sorry... who knows why she didn't call. Perhaps she got cold feet/nervous, or perhaps she's confused herself. I think the D papers really got her thinking.
Others here may have a different opinion, but I would pull away from her more ... really detach. You said yourself that you gain confidence when you do that. Draw an imaginary force field between yourself and her and don't let her cross it. Don't let her play with your feelings/emotions. You even want to ask her not to text you (unless it's about your D). Or just ignore those messages. Go dark.
Sit tight for a couple of weeks and build up your emotional/mental strength. If she gets really serious about discussing reconciliation at least by then you'll feel stronger, and you'll give her time to mull over things, too. Let her get desperate.
