I understand how you are feeling. You want to either move on or reconcile, but every time you see any tiny indication of progress, you are ready to give him whatever you think he needs to make it work, and when you do he pulls away. Then when you try to get on with your life, he baits you and makes you feel bad for doing what he said he wanted. I am very closely acquainted with this roller coaster, yo-yo mess of a life you are leading.
As difficult as this may seem, you ABSOLUTELY have to show him that you will survive w/out him, and that if he wants a D, you will move on and find your own happiness. And you will, but you have to believe it too. I have come to realize that this is the only way to do this, is to be strong and confident and know that you deserve better. If you show him you will take being treated badly, he will continue to treat you that way. Show him that you are worth more than that, believe it, and because it's true.
What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.
FA:43, H:42 D:7 M:10 yrs, T:24 yrs EA:?, PA:1/06 S:3/07 EA/PA ongoing Aborted attempt to move home 07/08
