What Now

[grdn24grl]

OK people I need your advice more than ever!
H called at 3:00 (no message) I was in the shower getting ready to meet a friend for a late lunch. I tried calling back around 4:00 - no answer (I didn't leave a message). H returned call at 4:30, I answered. He said he was calling to make sure I wasn't dead b/c he hadn't heard from me in a week, I said I haven't heard from you either. He replied "I've been busy", I said so have I. He said he wants to get together to "discuss" what's going on and what we're to do. He said he didn't want to bombard me with what he wants and he wants my input on things. He asked what my plans were for the week, I said I have plans tomorrow night, he asked what tomorrow night was, I said New Year's Eve, he replied, "Oh you have New Year's Eve plans" (like I'm not supposed to or something) to which he said he didn't and was staying home, other than that I wasn't sure what my week held for me as I've just been going with the flow (total 180 for me - I am a mega planner). He said he'd have to check his schedule as to when we can get together (if you were the one who called to make arrangements to get together, wouldn't you already have any idea of when you're available?). He also said he was shocked to hear my tone - he said "I thought you'd be angry with me" I asked why he thought that, he said "'cause everytime I bring up wanting to talk you just started crying, now it sounds like you're ready to move on". I didn't really respond to that. He made many complaints about things going on at the firestation, blah, blah, blah, whine, whine... I just said I was sorry to hear it. I have to admit I've been paranoid since we got off the phone, I'm not sure what to expect... I just keep repeating to myself "act as if this is going to have a positive outcome". I also keep thinking, that if he was so set in his decision, why would he want my input on things and to know my feelings (doesn't he already know how I feel?). PLEASE, GIVE ME GIUDANCE AS TO HANDLE THIS!!!!!!!!! I NEED ANY AND ALL!!!!!