H turned up on time and stayed for three and half hours, until I put the boys to bed.
He seemed relaxed and in good spirits, he asked what we had done today. I NEVER ask him what he has done, I feel like i'm intruding in his space, he very rarely offers info either (although I was dying to ask what he had done for the last 2 days).
He seemed happy to be here, but just as happy to go again once the boys were in bed. I feel really down now, perhaps I had expectations today or maybe i'm just disappointed with myself for inviting him over b/c I feel he now has the advantage.
New Years Eve, i'm travelling 100 miles to H's brothers and wife, taking the boys. H is invited as well. H has asked me twice tonight what time i'm leaving and confirming that I am going. I know he has been invited, but I haven't said anything to H about his coming b/c i'd be anxious that he'd say no he didn't want to go, or that he already has plans.
Jen - what was the turning point that made your H return home after 2 months? Did he say he was re-committing to the M?
Right now, I don't feel confident that H will return ever. I try to be his best friend as much as he will let me, but in the back of my mind I also know that he may not return and I dread hearing the 'D' word.
Saffie - I'm back at work on wednesday, look forward to catching up.
Happy New Year to you all.
Love Eve xxx
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07
