Long and Bumpy Road #2

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Jak...I have been posting over in Newcomers as I know you have been so busy.
Update...H was here Xmas night talking about how miserable he is and how this is not how he wants his life to go....how he and OW are just friends and they talk about her dad, nothing more. That he still wants us but wants to go slow, blah blah blah...

Here are some of my latest posts from Newcomers to catch you up.
I know I am going to get 2x4'd for this but I couldn't help it. My H is out of town hunting this weekend and I decided to go to his house and look around (im ducking). Anyway, didn't find much but there are 2 new pictures of OW's kids sitting in frames on his table. Yuck. He had thier last years before and now those are gone and new ones with new frames are up. She must have given him that for xmas.

I know its his house and all and I was snooping so I probably deserve every bit of pain I feel, but it just irks me. I am so sick and tired of them being "friends". ITS NOT OK WITH ME!! Its wrong.

He has been texting today and I have ignored as I am so irked about the pics. Oh yea, I found out that the company that he worked for did some work at her parents house. I am sure he was there.
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I am back to being irritated. I don't think I will ever trust this man again.

He is gone on his trip for the weekend. He keeps texing me asking how I am feeling. I have had the flu feeling all day. I just invision him texting me and OW back and forth. I have no idea what exactly if anything is still going on but it sure is disrespectful to say the least. I mean, at the very least I don't think they ought to be friends and he shouldn't have pics right in his stupid living room.

I think I may have done something stupid
I sent this text to H.

"I have been thinking and I am not comfortable with your friendship/relationship with OW. It really bothers me and its not right. If there is any chance for us, communication with an ex is unacceptable on any level. If you really care about us and this family you will put this relationship first. I am sure if you were in my position you would feel the same. I would really like a happy future together and I am willing to work on myself, but I need to have the same from you."

I know it sounds needy and ultimatum like, but I am so sick of this. I am not ok with their friendship. They have been intimate, she wants more and its not innocent. Its not ok with me. I can't just look the other way. They exchanged xmas gifts and there are pics of her kids sitting on his table.

Ready for the 2x4!! _________________________

No response, but he is hunting right now and won't be home till tomorrow.

I just wish that on Xmas I wouldn't have given him an inch without telling him my boundaries. He told me they text about friendly stuff and I didn't say it then and its been eating at me since. He didn't say he was going to stop either and I felt that he thought I was ok with it. I am not.

So, I guess I wait for a response. It will most likely be an angry one telling me he is sick of hearing about this blah, blah blah.




I just heard from H. Got my usual "how are you feeling?" I responded with "much better"

Not sure what is happening. Either he forgot about my text from yesterday or he is avoiding it. I will give it some time and see.

The more I think about it the more certain I have reached my fork in the road. Like I said before, maybe sending a text during his hunting trip about OW was not the time but I still feel the same. Something has to be done one way or the other. No more wishy washy in between. I am ok with either. Of course I would rather have my family but I have given him enough time and chances. If we are not going to make it I would rather start going on.

For some reason I do feel better when I have this mindset. I am no longer waiting on H to decide.
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Anyway Jak....when you get back I could really use some feedback.