LL..wish I had something to say that might help..but I have not gotten to the place you are...I would die just to have h come back and say he wants to try..let alone the hugs, spooning etc...yet I am trying to understand that your h is home, but things are not falling into place smoothly..where are the books to help after your'e back and how to reestablish a r after all that has happened? The things you have gone through can't be solved, forgotten, forgiven overnight...hang in there..if that's what you want..and let time help the healing and rebuilding.
