I'm sorry you're in this place today. It's hard and it sux. A question I have for youto consider is this: Are you done for you (I believe this answer comes from a place of peace) or done b/c it's hard to feel like your begging for something you may not get and are feeling stupid for "waiting"?
Only you get to decide. Just look into your heart and soul for the answers. They are there. It can be hard to hear the answers over the sound of our broken hearts.