The New Adventures of Supermom...Part 3

[JennyF]

H came this morning to see the kids. He said he was going to come in the morning and showed up at 11:40...gee thanks.

I saw him yesterday too and it was hard. Hard because he is acting so normal. Having conversations, laughing about the kids, talking about mutual friends. It's so freakin' normal that it's killing me! Especially knowing he's now going away for two days with OW.

I'm starting to feel really angry with him about my situation. A person should not be parenting a 3 yr old and a newborn by themselves!! Not when there is a choice for it to be another way!
I still ask constantly how he can be ok with giving up a close R with his kids just for her?! He probably can't see it this way...hopefully in time.

Anyway, I'm going to try to use the comfort of our conversations to create a new friendship with H. It will be hard becuase deep down I just want to punch him in the nose...but I hope it works. That...and focusing on me.

J~