After our last conversation I pretty well figured you were.
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I'm tempted to just tell H everything right now. But....my best friend told me not to. She says it would be selfish. You would just hurt him. You're not having sex anyways so what difference does it make. And what if the guy just wants to F you, then what? Why ruin your M? What if he goes back and gets killed in the next few months? Then you lose both ways. Just keep it to yourself. If you make that choice, you need to live with those consequences yourself. and on and on.
So your marriage is really bad, and you feel dead inside, but not it's not bad enough to end no matter what, or if the other guy doesn't want you, so you want to make sure of that first before letting your husband in on it. I understand.
Being all giddy with swirly neurotransmitters wasn't quite what I meant when speaking of "rational choices".
You will do whatever it is you're going to do. I won't even tell you to be careful because you're clearly beyond that.
But do remember that "I will live with the consequences!" sounds a lot easier than it usually is, after the chemicals settle in the clear light of day, and someone has to deal with the clean-up.
