Just bought a 1 way non-refundable ticket to Dtown

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Still no contact from W... Im beginning to think she just wanted the reassurance that I still care (Ive been dark for a while).

She acts like she misses me, gets her reassurance and then runs off to the hills again. When that happens, my detachment goes back to zero. I have to start all over again from the beginning.

I know I need to learn to not get too excited when she expresses interest, this sucks.

Ive also been having a hard time staying asleep again, keep waking up with anxiety.

I think Im really going to try and stop idealizing our relationship and try and focus on the negative things that have happened. Try to view her in a different light. Lately all Ive been thinking about are all the good times, the way she smells, sitting next to her in church, hugging her.

We're supposed to be meeting today to discuss us, Im really not sure if she will even contact me today at all. I will not contact her.