Quote: If you would have sent me that letter, I would have thought you were a nut case, and would have run then!
gee thanks tony!!!
you don't know how many notes include me calling myself nuts...apologizing for being insecure...needy...etc...h never ran away...but he never did anything to change his behaviour...one day was to suffice a week...2 weeks vaca was to suffice the year...promises of it'll be better next season...things will be better then...well they didn't get better and when I accepted that they wouldn't and started to take comfort in what was...I was slapped by the knowledge of ow!!
so you see...I know I'm a nut bag....wouldn't be here if I wasn't...maybe after the first letter like that I wrote...I should have run away...but it seemed whenever I did...h would do some of the things I wanted...only to again get complacant.
I'm not a nut...I just want equal respect...I'll scratch your back you scratch mine...give and take...h is just starting to get this...he may not want to hug me and cuddle cause it just isn't always his thing...but if he does...he will have a happier w and therefore be a happier h...ta da...now if he had just understood that 10 years ago we wouldn't be in this mess!!!
