Long and Bumpy Road 2be continued...

[Startingover2]

Well, I never heard from him yesterday or last night. I am not surprised. He is hunting and I am sure he wasn't wanting to deal with this. He will be home tonight sometime.

I keep thinking about whether I did the wrong thing or not. I have been db'ing for 18 months now and it really hasn't brought him back. It's only allowed him to cake eat. I am not saying that dbing is wrong but I think I am getting to the end of my rope. I just feel like I don't want to go on doing the same old thing.

I was talking to a gf last night who got married after 8 long years of being off and on with her bf. They just got married a year ago today! It lasted until March of this year (3 months) and he decided he didn't want to be married anymore. She was 5 months pregnant. He now pops in and out when he feels like it and there are no boundaries. He is seeing someone and it kills her. I listened to her pain last night after she spent the day with him and the baby and then he ups and drives away to spend the night with his new gf. She has been at this with him for 8 years now.

At what point do you say enough??!! Maybe I am just in a bad place now, but for me at this moment it feels like if I let this continue it will. H has the perfect life. He can mentally/emotionally move on when he feels like it when he goes home but I can't. I worry I will be stuck here forever.

I was reading on another board that I belong to that says for R to truly happen there has to be NC with OW. NONE. That you do 180 and not let them cake eat. I don't know what is right in my sich right now. Very confused and down.