Whoever asked if he's a big dude, no. He's actually quite a bit smaller than me. He's just an ass. As for his kids, his Ex had them. I don't think he got to do Xmas with them until Wednesday or Thursday.
Hope to be getting the treadmill sometime soon.
Not much to report. I've come to the realization that my W only contacts me when she wants something. Babysitting, money, some of her stuff. I've thought back over the last month or two and any extended visitation I've had with her has been for her to get something.
Supposedly, the separation proposal will be finished next week and sent over for my review. She said something to the effect of "since you want this done so fast". In the past, I thought this comment was due to her not wanting it. Now I realize that's not the case. She simply doesn't want to be impacted.. financially or otherwise. She's just fine living life the way it is with no penalties.
I'm a nice guy by nature, which is a big issue for me. I continue to let her take advantage in certain situations. One because I think it may help our situation, the other, is just plain nice guy.
These recent realizations have made me jaded towards her. It's very obvious to me now.. she has no interest in me. I said a while back that she uses her "friends". Well.. that's where I stand with her now.
It is hard for me to be nice with her now. I know I need to be in a good mood and pleasant, but it's hard right now.
I have decided to be a little more proactive with protecting the girls. There are some potential issues coming up that I have no problems nailing down if needed.
Rambling I know.. anyway... lastly.. I'm ready to start dating now. I need to put this past me. I get to a good level and then let her back in and it hurts. I don't want to let her in anymore. Not unless she were to commit unconditionally. That's not going to happen.
