Another long convo initiated by him. Nothing different. I was very calm. He isn't willing to take the chance that things will really be different between us even though this is probably the closest we've been to a "turning point" in our R. I just told him that things would, of course, be different but the changes might not be enough for ME to stay in the M at this point.
Finally, he said that he simply needs to start acting like the person he really is. He hates how he has been behaving. Which is my point - getting a D legitimizes the A and takes away the guilt... Not sinning anymore in their eyes. *sigh*
One funny thing that happened last evening as we were leaving a family function... I was waiting in the car and my phone rang. I talked to my friend for a few minutes and was hanging up just as H walked up. He didn't ask who I was talking to (how could he?? I don't ask!) and I didn't say but he was VERY quiet for part of the ride home. Could he have been wondering???
