Quote: and really, the love your h felt for ow was never "lived" or tested. it existed in the context of an affair. not a mature reality based love.
I know that...(most of the time) but I'm not sure h knows that...yet.
I'm just at a loss...I don't know...
I feel foolish wanting h to have those feelings for me...when I myself lost those feelings a long time ago...
sometimes I wonder if h and ow actually belong together and her h and I were simply in the way...
sad!!
I wish h hadn't fallen in love with her...I wish h would understand that those feelings are easy to keep when it isn't a "real" r...when you have no responsibility or obligation to that person it's easy to keep feeling that way....
maybe that's something he started to realize once their r wasn't just fun...once they started talking feelings...once she decided to leave her h...once is started to get real...
oh to many thoughts in my head...
note to self...stop worrying about what h does or doesn't feel and pay more attention to your own feelings!! cause they need work too!!
