Just bought a 1 way non-refundable ticket to Dtown

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We had a blast! Sledding always brings out the kid in me.

Had another rough day obsessing about W, havent spoken to her in 2 days so Im beginning to wonder if our meeting tomorrow is going to take place after all.

It seems like she dangles the carrot for me and then gets her security knowing I still care then she backs off and lives it up with OM. When I detach again, here she comes again.

I know I need to recognize these patterns and not get sucked into them. Everytime she expresses interest, I get my hopes up so high and then I get hurt all over again.

It seems like it would almost be easier to tell her I cant wait any longer and to not text/IM/call me unless its about our daughter. At least when I dont speak to her, I start to move on but everytime she contacts me, the clock starts all over again.

H4C