Actually, the past three days have been difficult. I am out of my regular work routine so I have plenty of time to sit around and let all sorts of thoughts go through my head! I have the kids this week and they are quite content to sit and play their games all day but that don't work for me!!! I make sure we get out and even just hit the malls for a bit, do some grocery shopping or whatever. What made it harder was that D10 had two full days of training to do over the week so it made it impossible to go anywhere or do anything much. Physically I am a mess, my body is so tight it's incredible. Now, most Christmas's I get tied up in knots with all the running around etc but this Christmas it's worse. I'm trying to stretch and took some meds to release the muscles but it's tough when you feel physically exhausted and you still have to get yourself going. At times I start to feel like it's a never ending rollercoaster and I'm the only passenger in the car! Christmas is so busy too that noone calls to check on me, so it's just me and the kids and, sad enough, my W appears to be my best friend through all this! I mean she's the only one who has invited me to do anything. Today I feel a little more energetic and less anxious. The kids and I are going to catch a movie this afternoon. Just a few more days and I will be back on the job, a regular routine that has some adult contact again. I think when things are back to normal I will feel more normal. Wow, I'm not used to feeling so run down and, I admit, it scares the heck out of me. I just have to keep in mind that this too shall pass and that I will be the old Whatis again, I need to be patient and just accept where I am right now, what is is!
