Hi. Thanks for the note. You have definitely given me something to think about.
The goodbye went smoothly at the airport. I played with my kids up until the second they left. I kissed them and hugged them and thanked W for making the holiday so special and told her that I had a great time. I tried so hard to not be pathetic. I told her I meant everything I said in her xmas card, which was just a short note from me.
I had a GREAT visit with my family here. I loved every second of us being together. We at dinner together every night and put the kids to bed together, played a couple of came straight home, rented a movie, and went to bed. I called her when she landed so she could see I was home. I texted her around 10 PM and told here again that I an home and asked that she please call, so she could see for herself. I wanted to call to her parents house directly but it was 11 PM and I didn't want to wake the entire house.
When I woke up this morning I did the same thing. I am doing everything that I can to show her I am home and alone, by myself. I want her to believe me and I want her to be able to depend on me. I do NOT want to abandon her or my kids. I thought of only myself for so long, and now all I can think about is my beautiful W and our children. I welcome the challenge of proving myself to her, I always have.
Anyway, I just wanted to share with those of you that have been reading this thread. I miss the pitter patter of little feet and I miss her perfume and voice. Really, what I miss the most is us. I know the missing piece in my life, the investments I didn't make, have been my W and my family. I am fighting for her, and I wont stop!!!!!!!!
