Does anyone know how you stop being angry at your spouse?
I am alternating today between anger at him and just sheer hopelessness that I am alone. I want to call up friends and have them cheer me up but really they're probably sick of me going on and on and on about h's latest gobsmack. I rang my sissie poo and sooked to her on the phone last night (she's on the other side of the country) and then h rang and wanted to know what was wrong with me earlier when I picked d up. I broke all DBing rules and ended up blubbing and getting really angry at him about all the things he has done. He told me I need to get over it. F me...it's been two weeks since the latest (biggest bomb) and he wants me to get over it and us be friendly??? Look, I'm a great person and I'm tolerant an' all but that's just unreasonable.
I am so mad at him, I don't want to see him or talk to him, but on the other hand I do want to see him and scream and yell at him and have him confess everything and really show that he is sorry. It doesn't matter what he says....it doesn't take back what he's done. And then he turns around and gives the impression that what I did (or didn't do) in the marriage is justification for it all??? I know it's alien spew but I just wish he would try and make it up to me.
I know he's not good for me and I don't want to be back with him. So why am I so upset?
