Atlas, I'm not feeling all full of wisdom recently, so I'll try to keep this brief.
Family/friends who you are losing connection with because THEY think it's time for YOU to move on? Eff them. This is your life. True friends are supportive of you and what you want to do. You work on your timetable, not theirs.
Your anger is justified at your W's A and the way she treated you. To be blunt: she shat all over you. It also sounds like she wants back in. Don't let your anger get in the way of what you really want if what you really want is your W back. It's scary to open back up to this woman who hurt you so much. If that's what you want, though, you're going to have to do so at some point. If you really want her, maybe start letting your guard down a little, you're going to have to at some point anyway.
Good decision on not going on the date. You're ready on your own timetable -- however short or long it may be. You'll know when it feels ok for you.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
