NikB's latest update (#23)

[NikB]

Thanks all!

Haven't had a lot to journal, just catching up with work and post-Christmas cleanup, but wanted to reply.

jak
Thank you!! Wishing you (and everyone) a wonderful 2008, as well. It's time we ALL had a wonderful year.


ediemarie
You aren't kidding on the in law sitch. I did somewhat "crack" a few weeks ago and he wouldn't really tell me anything, just that it was "his fault" and that his mom was mad at him (the impression I got was for not D'ing me yet, but who knows). Agreed, good time to give him plenty of space.

Dave
You're sooo right on the two different personality thing. I didn't see it that much last time around (saw more of the "done" personality and less of the "NTG" one), but it seems to be happening a lot, lately. I just try not to get too caught up in it all. Thanks for your thoughts!

ST
Hey thanks for checking in even on vacation!! I appreciate it. Yeah, I have no idea what's really going on. It's even possible it has nothing to do with our sitch (unlikely, but possible). It may be that they somehow got wind of my attitude about SIL's recent D. The more I look back the more I feel like she went through with the M in hopes of making $$ off of his fairly wealthy family... and while I haven't said anything, I also don't buy into the whole pity party that she "deserved" more $$ or was somehow ripped off.

Supposedly he gave them the gifts and they said they liked them... no "thank you" but they liked them.

Interesting thought on the level of hurt, I kinda feel that's where I am right now.

f21
Thank you! Good point to focus on what I want, I need to do more of that. You're such a sweetie!!

(((f21)))

Hope you have a great weekend as well!

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I'm finally painting my room tomorrow and/or Sunday (depending on how long it takes). May go out with a friend Sat. night or may just kick back at home. H is going night skiing (with two male friends who I know), so I'll have the house to myself if I want.

I found myself searching online today for condos/houses in my price range if we D'd. I don't know why I do this every so often, but I do. I usually find some condos but rarely houses - and I'd really prefer a house (love having pets, so I want the yard!). Today I found two developments that are building a handful of small single family homes that would be in my price range... they were very cute!! Small, but well designed and looked nice.

Not ready to DO anything but it somehow makes me feel better to do this sometimes. Funny, the last time I saw the MC (solo) she told me she thought I'd "fantasize" about my future more and more, and ultimately be the one to take real action.

That said.. like you mentioned f21 I need to get the focus back on what I DO want. I'm still sorting through what exactly that is, but it sure isn't all the stuff I'm trying to ignore right now.