great to hear from you hope you are doing well. I took a break here and refocused and regrouped and seem to be better.
I saw him last night for the first time in wks. He came to hang out with d for she left today for a 10 day trip and she did not want to go out to dinner with him.
I believe I might have mastered the act as if for I was in the living room going through a plant catalog taking notes and watching a movie when he got here and he came in to see me and say hi. I was nice talked about d's trip. Offered him dessert when I was on my way past family room and he declined. I didn't say a word. he was playing a game with the kids. I was back in living room when he left and he came to say goodbye. I said goodbye told him that I hoped he had a good day tomorrow.
he has not been here this yr at all with the house decorated.
he looks sad but he has to work through this
he spent Christmas eve with friends and someone's mother. but at 10:30 he sent s a txt msg. goodnight..?? the kids and I were at church so he did not get it until later.
Christmas day i did not call him this yr. he did not call me either. At 3pm I sent him a txt msg. all it said was. Merry Christmas. immed. I got one back like 30 sec. later. same to u.
so he was alone? he spent time with the kids at his condo and they ate and played WI which he really liked had never played before.
d told me he had lots of beer in fridge and that bothered her. TV dinners in freezer. Boxes of cereal and his stuff is all over. so she thinks he is living there.
I am in redecorating mode..... painting tonight !!
I have a weird feeling inside at times that he might be having second thoughts again. Last week I had 3 different dreams with him in it. that is odd for I never dream of him.
the last time I dreamed of him was a few wks before we he wanted to come home.
no word about the D since dec.12th. but I have a feeling the week after New Years I will hear from my L that his L has finally gotten the paperwork together.
off to paint !!
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
