Don't let these interactions be what makes you happy. Find happiness within yourself, and these pleasant interactions with W will be icing on the cake -- not the cake itself.
And the finding happiness for myself's the toughie. I'm managing day-to-day, but I'm just muddling through. nothing quite yet that makes me go "this is good".
But the positive interactions aren't so much what makes me happy, as something that gives me a window into how things used to be. Which is nice - and happy - but ...urk.
As for R-talk and the like: I think you've got the right of it, GD. I'll just let things go along as they have been, as they are - and if/when she files for D, I'll take one last stab at saving this M.
Heim -
Ah, but for me there was the stigma of anti-depressants being...over-used? So many use 'em when there's no geniune need. But I think I -do- have a genuine need. So. Made the call.
