Hi, I am new here. I stumbled across your website looking for help and I couldn't stop reading. I am 39 and my husband of almost 15 years is 40. We have been together since high school. This past September my husband watched in person the twin towers go down. In October he turned 40 and everything since then has been awful. He told me he wasn't happy that he was bored. Things got worse and we talked about separting. We have an 8 year old son and he has never seen anything but love between his parents. We have both been going for counseling separately and together. Last week everything came out. My husband admitted that he cheated on me once before my son and twice since him. The last one was 2 years ago but she still calls him. She lives in another state, my husband used to travel for business a lot. He said that up until the September tragedy he didn't think anything of it. Now, he started to feel guilty, guestioning his love for me. He told me that if he truly loves me how could he be unfaithful.He says he knows that if he didn't have these affairs we wouldn't be where we are now. He wants to stay and work at the marriage, especially because of our son. It would devestate him if we broke up. I would love to hate my husband but can't. I love him with all my heart it's what I've been doing for most of my life. He told me he told the girl to stop calling, that they never spoke about anything except her day and that he would never give up my son or me for her. He promises he will never do it again. How do I trust again, how do I make all this pain go away? How do we fall in love again? Everything I've ever know to be true has been a lie. We have always had a great marriage, or so I thought. How do we start over?
