Still sad but movin' on

[MonicaP]

Hi alamogirl,

Yep, sounds familiar.

I've been feeling really down these holidays. I took the whole week off and now I wish I hadn't. Sometimes it's easier to be at work and only have to "entertain" my S5 part time. I just crave adult time. That said, I truly adore my son and love his company. I just think the holidays are such a reminder of the loss of my family. I try to focus on my blessings, but it's been hard this year. My brother and his family just bought a new house which looks like a page out of a Pottery Barn catalog. We spent Christmas Eve there. It was very boring and then to top it off my S threw up in the car on the way home. I definitely was feeling sorry for myself.

Yesterday STBXH had S5 for the day and seemed so happy...I knew he was including the Ow on their day.

I just struggle sometimes with the Why of it all. Why did ex use our marriage as an excuse for his unhappiness? Why, now that he seems to be putting his life back together, does he still not remember our love? He acts like everything is just fine.

Sometimes I think I'll never get past this. I just pray I will live to love again. And that I can come to peace with the loss of my family.

Thank you for sharing your story with me.

Stay in touch.

Monica