Mermaid! I am very happy to see that you've posted. Welcome back! Happy New Year and the whole nine yards.
I'm sorry you had to move and also close your day care. I know you loved to work with the children. I'm sorry that Christmas was very hard for you, but it's over now and you can look to the new year.
I do hope that you find that special job that will bring the light back into your life. Healing takes time and sometimes the wounds have to open in order to breathe new "cells" into the wound. Take each day as it comes.
I'm very happy to see that you and the girls are okay.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.