Thanks Michelle, I had been so preoccupied with reconcilling that I didn't think about what I would do if he actually came back. A part of me was happy...and the other part was suspicious as to what he wanted. The last thing I want is to go back to that place where I was so depressed.
I had lunch with him today. He says he is going back to TX (I am now in AL) today. I wasn't aware he was going back that soon. I asked him just to stay the night and leave early in the morning since it is already so late. He said no, he just needs to get back there. Of course my first thought is OW. He said he needs to go back to get things together in case he moves back here. He was going to look at some more apartments before he left. I felt like I was right back where I started. I wanted so bad for him to stay. I left the restaurant and cried all the way back to work. I hate this. He did say that he felt in his heart that he would be back here and this is where he belongs.
Who knows what will happen...maybe I jumped the gun and I should move back to the separated forum. It was strange how I reacted. I was the one being cautious and then as soon as he started backing off...there I was pleading and crying again. I suck at DBing. Not sure what to do now since he is leaving again except work on myself.
Michelle, what I was trying to say on your thread is that I went about 2 months without talking to H and that is when he came to me. In my mind in those 2 months H and OW were having a great life....seems like he was thinking of me. The same may be true for your H.
A part of me wants to call or text OW and see if she knows that he has been with me the past week and a half. Tell her the things he has been saying to me. I didn't say I was going to I just said I WANT to. I know it wouldn't be constructive.
